Look here,You got me mistakenWith no fear,No I ain’t breaking Fell tears,It was a break-inLeft me forsakenBut I’m reawakenedAnd ready to take it Bring me a torch and a shieldFor the journey now that I’m healedYou thought I would kneelBut rise to the top I shall, I speel. Coming for you-for the truthStop I shan’t …
In the silence of the nightAnd the absence of the lightDeafening screams come from within,With it, the torture begins Questions without answers,Like tiny dancersChaotic in my headScary like monsters beneath the bed. With no rhythm and no beat,Toppling over with two left feetWith no solace to be foundDefeated I lay, on the ground. The flame …
I stand in the in-between,where the past whispers my nameand the future waits, unpainted,a canvas both vast and uncertain. Nine months of undoing,of peeling back the layers of who I was,only to find grief where I thoughtthere would be light I thought the healing would feel like soaring,like freedom, like finally being whole.But some days, …
I’m currently navigating a triggering situation I can’t avoid, and I’ve had to rely heavily on the skills I’ve learned through therapy and my healing journey. This isn’t just a one-time fix; it’s a lifestyle change, a daily commitment. Every day, multiple times, I have to adjust my reactions, fighting my initial thoughts and feelings, …
In my past couple of blogs I have mentioned comorbidity, but not delved much deeper into it. Today, I’ll be doing exactly that; exploring what comorbidity means and discovering its relevance in EUPD/BPD specifically. What is Comorbidity? Comorbidity refers to two or more conditions co-existing within the same individual. For example, someone with depression also …
As part of my healing journey with EUPD/BPD, I have been trying to find my community and whilst doing so, I have had the pleasure of meeting Alice, 31 from Texas who has agreed to share their own path with us to help try and raise awareness in BPD and shatter the stigma. Diagnosed at …
Read more “From Misdiagnosis to Self-Acceptance: Alice’s BPD Journey”
It’s been a few months since my EUPD diagnosis and I’ve been radio silent for the majority of that. I have spent this time trying to focus on the first steps in my two year SCM (Structured Clinical Management) journey and trying to understand the diagnosis. As part of this, I will try and portray …
Every morning, I wake up, follow my routine, and head to work. On the outside, I’m functioning like anyone else but in reality, since my EUPD diagnosis, I’ve been questioning: Are these feelings mine, or just my mental health talking? Struggling with the Diagnosis – It’s Not Glamorous I used to think I hated life …
Read more “Becoming Yas Again – Exploring Identity Through EUPD”
Yesterday, a notification popped up on my phone: a self-care app congratulating me on six months of use. It should have felt like an achievement. Instead, it felt like a gut punch—a stark reminder that it’s been half a year since everything changed. Since I last laughed out loud, since I last felt joy, self-pride …
Read more “The Trauma That Stole My Joy: A Six-Month Struggle”
Medicinal Cannabis is illegal in Turkey, and I don’t think I will ever see the legalisation of it. In this blog I will discuss the stigma around mental health in Turkey as well as the stigma and law around cannabis there. Mental Health in Turkey Being mentally ill in Turkey was very difficult for me …
Read more “Breaking the Silence: Mental Health and Medicinal Cannabis in Turkey”
I’ve heard it dozens of times, uncountable times maybe… “It’s just a job, Yas!” but for me, that’s never been the case. School, work, any kind of self improvement has always been my greatest passion and motivator. It’s how I feel valuable, appreciated, loved and connected. It’s how I feel comfort.So, when I was without …
Read more “Rebuilding After Breaking: My Journey Back to Work Amidst Mental Health Challenges”
As I leave another appointment, despite being unbelievably grateful for the support I’m receiving, I’m left feeling shaky after the realisation that I will wait almost 10 days to see a professional again. I still have just under 48 hours for my trauma group, and although that’s a support system many don’t have, it still …
Read more “Surviving the Spaces in Treatment: Self-care, Resilience and Hope”
Many times I have touched on how healing isn’t a linear journey. Whether this be physical injuries, emotional trauma or mental health challenges, setbacks and doubts and the struggles throughout the process are rarely spoken of. One is seen to be in recovery and every day one is expected to progress; however this can often …
Read more “When Healing Feels Like Breaking: Embracing the Painful Journey”
Throughout my treatment journey, I am now finding myself awaiting the possible diagnosis EUPD, and whilst trying to make sense of it all, I find myself more and more able to expand on my own blogs, and this one I feel closely relates to Trauma Stacking. I will delve deeper into how Trauma Stacking can …
Read more “How Trauma Stacking can Result In New Mental Health Diagnosis’ – Looking into EUPD”
We’ve all heard the saying “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” and whilst I agree, I feel it’s half a sentence. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger in some circumstances, following immense pain, trauma, self-doubt, struggles with identity and broken bonds. At least in my situation… For me, the highest moments in my …
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