Every morning, I wake up, follow my routine, and head to work. On the outside, I’m functioning like anyone else but in reality, since my EUPD diagnosis, I’ve been questioning: Are these feelings mine, or just my mental health talking? Struggling with the Diagnosis – It’s Not Glamorous I used to think I hated life …
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Yesterday, a notification popped up on my phone: a self-care app congratulating me on six months of use. It should have felt like an achievement. Instead, it felt like a gut punch—a stark reminder that it’s been half a year since everything changed. Since I last laughed out loud, since I last felt joy, self-pride …
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Medicinal Cannabis is illegal in Turkey, and I don’t think I will ever see the legalisation of it. In this blog I will discuss the stigma around mental health in Turkey as well as the stigma and law around cannabis there. Mental Health in Turkey Being mentally ill in Turkey was very difficult for me …
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I’ve heard it dozens of times, uncountable times maybe… “It’s just a job, Yas!” but for me, that’s never been the case. School, work, any kind of self improvement has always been my greatest passion and motivator. It’s how I feel valuable, appreciated, loved and connected. It’s how I feel comfort.So, when I was without …
Read more “Rebuilding After Breaking: My Journey Back to Work Amidst Mental Health Challenges”
As I leave another appointment, despite being unbelievably grateful for the support I’m receiving, I’m left feeling shaky after the realisation that I will wait almost 10 days to see a professional again. I still have just under 48 hours for my trauma group, and although that’s a support system many don’t have, it still …
Read more “Surviving the Spaces in Treatment: Self-care, Resilience and Hope”
Many times I have touched on how healing isn’t a linear journey. Whether this be physical injuries, emotional trauma or mental health challenges, setbacks and doubts and the struggles throughout the process are rarely spoken of. One is seen to be in recovery and every day one is expected to progress; however this can often …
Read more “When Healing Feels Like Breaking: Embracing the Painful Journey”
Throughout my treatment journey, I am now finding myself awaiting the possible diagnosis EUPD, and whilst trying to make sense of it all, I find myself more and more able to expand on my own blogs, and this one I feel closely relates to Trauma Stacking. I will delve deeper into how Trauma Stacking can …
Read more “How Trauma Stacking can Result In New Mental Health Diagnosis’ – Looking into EUPD”
We’ve all heard the saying “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” and whilst I agree, I feel it’s half a sentence. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger in some circumstances, following immense pain, trauma, self-doubt, struggles with identity and broken bonds. At least in my situation… For me, the highest moments in my …
My personal journey with mental health first saw me pretending I didn’t have mental health problems and never bringing the subject up; to then only mentioning it to certain people I felt comfortable with, to shouting it from the rooftops and trying to educate everyone, to now reeling it back in and only mentioning it …
Read more “Why I’m Done Apologising for My Mental Health: A Manifesto for Radical Self-Acceptance”
In 20 years, I’ve tried roughly the same amount of medications in an attempt to stabilise my conditions. While traditional pharmaceuticals have provided mixed results, medicinal cannabis has shown promise in addressing symptoms that other treatments failed to alleviate. In this post, I will share my journey and the pros and cons of both approaches. …
Since delving deeper into mental health I have learnt more about the ECS (Endocannabinoid System), trauma and adversity and the ACE study, so why not combine these into one blog and discuss my anecdotes also? We know that the ECS is a cell-signalling system that regulates many aspects of the body from sleep to appetite, …
During the mid 1990’s, the MD of Kaiser Permanente Medical Care Program, a US based Health Maintenance Organisation Vincent J. Felitti and MD of the CDC Dr. Robert Anda conducted a study with over 17.000 patients for a two year period to delve into 8 different potential categories of childhood/household instability or abuse to view …
Read more “The ACE Study: How Childhood Trauma Affects Our Physical and Mental Health in Adulthood”
Trigger Warning: This post discusses topics of mental health and suicide. If you are struggling with these issues, please reach out to a mental health professional or crisis hotline. Throughout the isolation of mental health struggles, this blog was written for myself… I cannot verbalise how lucky I feel that I am being given the …
Read more “A Raw Look at My Current Fight for Mental Wellness”
Although I’ve worked in healthcare for a few years, my experience with the NHS has mostly been as a patient. I don’t use the services often—maybe once a year, if that, for something small like a throat infection when I need antibiotics. The only service I’ve ever truly needed has been for mental health support. …
Read more “Fighting for Help: How the NHS is Letting Down Mental Health Patients”
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