For those who have read my previous blogs, you will be aware that just over a year ago I was placed in a Mental Health Crisis Home as an alternative to hospital admission.In this blog I will explain the before, the during and the aftermath of a crisis home, as someone who is still feeling …
Look here,You got me mistakenWith no fear,No I ain’t breaking Fell tears,It was a break-inLeft me forsakenBut I’m reawakenedAnd ready to take it Bring me a torch and a shieldFor the journey now that I’m healedYou thought I would kneelBut rise to the top I shall, I speel. Coming for you-for the truthStop I shan’t …
In the silence of the nightAnd the absence of the lightDeafening screams come from within,With it, the torture begins Questions without answers,Like tiny dancersChaotic in my headScary like monsters beneath the bed. With no rhythm and no beat,Toppling over with two left feetWith no solace to be foundDefeated I lay, on the ground. The flame …
The Importance of Accessible, High-Quality Healthcare for All Healthcare is a fundamental right that every individual should have access to. It’s essential that this care not only be available, but also of the highest quality—safe, empathetic, communicative, understanding, and effective. In this blog, I’ll share my personal perspective, drawing from my experiences with both private …
Read more “The NHS Strain: A Personal Journey Through Private Healthcare”
I stand in the in-between,where the past whispers my nameand the future waits, unpainted,a canvas both vast and uncertain. Nine months of undoing,of peeling back the layers of who I was,only to find grief where I thoughtthere would be light I thought the healing would feel like soaring,like freedom, like finally being whole.But some days, …
I’m currently navigating a triggering situation I can’t avoid, and I’ve had to rely heavily on the skills I’ve learned through therapy and my healing journey. This isn’t just a one-time fix; it’s a lifestyle change, a daily commitment. Every day, multiple times, I have to adjust my reactions, fighting my initial thoughts and feelings, …
In my past couple of blogs I have mentioned comorbidity, but not delved much deeper into it. Today, I’ll be doing exactly that; exploring what comorbidity means and discovering its relevance in EUPD/BPD specifically. What is Comorbidity? Comorbidity refers to two or more conditions co-existing within the same individual. For example, someone with depression also …
As part of my healing journey with EUPD/BPD, I have been trying to find my community and whilst doing so, I have had the pleasure of meeting Alice, 31 from Texas who has agreed to share their own path with us to help try and raise awareness in BPD and shatter the stigma. Diagnosed at …
Read more “From Misdiagnosis to Self-Acceptance: Alice’s BPD Journey”
It’s been a few months since my EUPD diagnosis and I’ve been radio silent for the majority of that. I have spent this time trying to focus on the first steps in my two year SCM (Structured Clinical Management) journey and trying to understand the diagnosis. As part of this, I will try and portray …
Every morning, I wake up, follow my routine, and head to work. On the outside, I’m functioning like anyone else but in reality, since my EUPD diagnosis, I’ve been questioning: Are these feelings mine, or just my mental health talking? Struggling with the Diagnosis – It’s Not Glamorous I used to think I hated life …
Read more “Becoming Yas Again – Exploring Identity Through EUPD”
I have discussed medicinal cannabis and I have discussed mental health. I have spoken about the stigma around both, but not the stigma around mental health patients compared to all other patients when medicinal cannabis specifically, is involved. Being a patient has its own difficulties, and I’m not stating anyone has it ‘easier’ than anyone …
Read more “Healing with Cannabis – Shatter the Stigma for Mental Health Patients”
The long awaited moment came, and now I can formally state that I have the diagnosis of anxiety, depression, complex PTSD, ADD and EUPD. I didn’t sleep very well, with the worry of my diagnosis/medication review. My team have been amazing and I wish I could give names but for now, I’ll just state that …
Read more “Diagnosed But Not Defined: Rediscovering Myself with EUPD”
Yesterday, a notification popped up on my phone: a self-care app congratulating me on six months of use. It should have felt like an achievement. Instead, it felt like a gut punch—a stark reminder that it’s been half a year since everything changed. Since I last laughed out loud, since I last felt joy, self-pride …
Read more “The Trauma That Stole My Joy: A Six-Month Struggle”
Medicinal Cannabis is illegal in Turkey, and I don’t think I will ever see the legalisation of it. In this blog I will discuss the stigma around mental health in Turkey as well as the stigma and law around cannabis there. Mental Health in Turkey Being mentally ill in Turkey was very difficult for me …
Read more “Breaking the Silence: Mental Health and Medicinal Cannabis in Turkey”
I’ve heard it dozens of times, uncountable times maybe… “It’s just a job, Yas!” but for me, that’s never been the case. School, work, any kind of self improvement has always been my greatest passion and motivator. It’s how I feel valuable, appreciated, loved and connected. It’s how I feel comfort.So, when I was without …
Read more “Rebuilding After Breaking: My Journey Back to Work Amidst Mental Health Challenges”
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