In the silence of the nightAnd the absence of the lightDeafening screams come from within,With it, the torture begins Questions without answers,Like tiny dancersChaotic in my headScary like monsters beneath the bed. With no rhythm and no beat,Toppling over with two left feetWith no solace to be foundDefeated I lay, on the ground. The flame …
Every morning, I wake up, follow my routine, and head to work. On the outside, I’m functioning like anyone else but in reality, since my EUPD diagnosis, I’ve been questioning: Are these feelings mine, or just my mental health talking? Struggling with the Diagnosis – It’s Not Glamorous I used to think I hated life …
“Becoming Yas Again – Exploring Identity Through EUPD”devamını oku
I have discussed medicinal cannabis and I have discussed mental health. I have spoken about the stigma around both, but not the stigma around mental health patients compared to all other patients when medicinal cannabis specifically, is involved. Being a patient has its own difficulties, and I’m not stating anyone has it ‘easier’ than anyone …
“Healing with Cannabis – Shatter the Stigma for Mental Health Patients”devamını oku
The long awaited moment came, and now I can formally state that I have the diagnosis of anxiety, depression, complex PTSD, ADD and EUPD. I didn’t sleep very well, with the worry of my diagnosis/medication review. My team have been amazing and I wish I could give names but for now, I’ll just state that …
“Diagnosed But Not Defined: Rediscovering Myself with EUPD”devamını oku
Yesterday, a notification popped up on my phone: a self-care app congratulating me on six months of use. It should have felt like an achievement. Instead, it felt like a gut punch—a stark reminder that it’s been half a year since everything changed. Since I last laughed out loud, since I last felt joy, self-pride …
“The Trauma That Stole My Joy: A Six-Month Struggle”devamını oku
Many times I have touched on how healing isn’t a linear journey. Whether this be physical injuries, emotional trauma or mental health challenges, setbacks and doubts and the struggles throughout the process are rarely spoken of. One is seen to be in recovery and every day one is expected to progress; however this can often …
“When Healing Feels Like Breaking: Embracing the Painful Journey”devamını oku
Throughout my treatment journey, I am now finding myself awaiting the possible diagnosis EUPD, and whilst trying to make sense of it all, I find myself more and more able to expand on my own blogs, and this one I feel closely relates to Trauma Stacking. I will delve deeper into how Trauma Stacking can …
“How Trauma Stacking can Result In New Mental Health Diagnosis’ – Looking into EUPD”devamını oku
Today, I will be delving into Compassion Fatigue, and how it affects those with responsibilities for others and the self-neglect and further mental health struggles this could lead to. I am a mother of a young child who has recently started school and although I was fortunate enough to be able to send him to …
One of my biggest fears and triggers is how my young son will be impacted by my mental health crisis’. As what I would hope would be ‘all’ caregivers, I want only the best for my son and every action I take I try to think about what those words, those actions will mean to …
In this blog I’m going to be covering two topics that I have gained further insight to via my trauma therapy group; trauma stacking and the trauma tree. I have decided to conduct more detailed research and share my anecdotes also. We have already discussed the ACE Study and I have mentioned that I have …
“My PTSD Journey: Trauma Stacking and the Trauma Tree”devamını oku
Since delving deeper into mental health I have learnt more about the ECS (Endocannabinoid System), trauma and adversity and the ACE study, so why not combine these into one blog and discuss my anecdotes also? We know that the ECS is a cell-signalling system that regulates many aspects of the body from sleep to appetite, …
During the mid 1990’s, the MD of Kaiser Permanente Medical Care Program, a US based Health Maintenance Organisation Vincent J. Felitti and MD of the CDC Dr. Robert Anda conducted a study with over 17.000 patients for a two year period to delve into 8 different potential categories of childhood/household instability or abuse to view …
Trigger Warning: This post discusses topics of mental health and suicide. If you are struggling with these issues, please reach out to a mental health professional or crisis hotline. Throughout the isolation of mental health struggles, this blog was written for myself… I cannot verbalise how lucky I feel that I am being given the …
“A Raw Look at My Current Fight for Mental Wellness”devamını oku
Önceki blogumda, Endokannabinoid Sisteminin (ECS) temellerini ele almış ve stres, ruh hali ve duygusal tepkileri düzenlemedeki kritik rolünü vurgulamıştım. Şimdi, daha spesifik bir konuya dalmak istiyorum: travmanın ECS'yi nasıl etkilediği. TSSB ve ECS Arasındaki Bağlantı Yaklaşık on yıl önce, NYU'dan yapılan bir araştırma...
“Can Cannabis Heal Trauma? – Understanding the Endocannabinoid System’s role in PTSD”devamını oku
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